Trying to cope with all of the changes coming and going has been a roller coaster ride this month. They have been all good changes in the end but we have been riding a lot of waves to get there and we are not done yet. It is true that death and taxes are inevitable but I would also add change to that list. Change has been a constant in our lives for a long time and I am thinking our future will involve many changes too which everyone experiences as they go through life.
A selfish part of me would like a break from the changes, just for a month. Just a week even, so I can catch my breath. My soul is running away from my body again and it really disconnects my body from my brain. the good thing is that I am aware of it but it still takes some painful adjustments.
We are approaching the 5th anniversary of Jason's cardiac arrest, and we are also approaching our 19th anniversary....I am not sure where time goes but in a blink of an eye it flies by. I have to find the time to slow down, and just breathe. I will have to book it into my schedule like I do everything else. assuming I will do it is not working so well these days. The roller coaster ride will dip upwards soon.
