Sunday, June 26, 2011

The title has never been truer

These past 2 weeks make the title I picked for this blog a confirmation that my gut instinct for the title was a correct one. Jesus H Christ. Why do bad things have to happen to good people? Why? Is it necessary to test someone to the limits of their pain and suffering but then test them again?

I could go on but I only spend a few minutes a day (I started this habit 3 years ago) ranting and raving. It lets me vent but I will not let myself dwell. There is no positive energy in that. And positive thoughts, looking moving forward, is the only way.

My Uncle Vern passed away this week and the world is a lesser place for him not being here. He was a kind and gentle soul who could ask more questions than an audition for Jeopardy and he could tell the funniest stories you ever heard - all in the same conversation. Losing a loved one while you live away is a pain. You want to be there for their immediate and extended family and friends, you want to hug the ones you love.

Dealing with the medical issues in our own family, dealing with work and kid, dealing with being posted away from home for 18 years, it can take its toll. Missing home is like missing a limb sometimes. My family and friends are the most important thing to me. Thank god for my military family, my friends away from home.

We also had our next door neighbours get packed up this week, they are moving back to Nova Scotia, posted back to Halifax. They are estatic. I will miss them like crazy. Kim has been there for me for the past 3 years. Ken and the kids too, god, it's also a part of a military family's life to watch your newly acquired loved ones leave. To have them for 3 years was a blessing.

Jacob is finishing Grade 7 this week. We are "making " making him go to Montreal for his last school trip - Biodome and La Ronde. God, we are awful parents. He told us tonight that a better idea would be" let me stay home and just give me the 60 bucks". His logic is flawed, obviously.

We have lost more soldiers this month, I cry each time I read the news. I feel for those families. The launch of Family Information Line (FIL) and www.familyforce.ca was this past week as well. More options for military families. Working on the OSI videos for DMFS, which are now on FamilyForce, is one of my proudest moments - thank you Royal Ottawa Hospital and thank you Dean for letting me be a part of it. For young people living in a home with a parent with an OSI it is a great and worthwhile project.

Jason made homemade beans and bread and we had friends over to enjoy it this weekend. Nothing beats a great homemade meal, good friends and a game of cards. Hopefully we will have started up the old tradition again.

Oh and Jason went and saw a Pink Floyd tribute band here last night. Please talk to him about it. He was hilariously calling it "Pink Lloyd" and joked that he was going to buy a shirt there. And he had to bring his lawn chair to the arena because they was no seating available. Apparently "they didn't suck".

That's all for now, off to bed, a new day around the corner.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Relay For Life

Friends of mine participated in Relay For Life this weekend. I have realized that life is exactly that - a relay.

#1 You need you family and friends, your loved ones, on this relay or you will not make it through or you will make it but be a miserable sad person at the end of the race. The support of others holds you up, inspires you and pushes you forward when you do not think you can go anymore. This is why we love others.

#2 It is a struggle. It is not always easy. That is life. See #1.

#3 There are bumps in the road, sometimes you see mountains. Climbing has become your new hobby. Scaling the mountain is the journey. Know the difference between a bump and a mountain. Perspective can be a good thing.

#4 Everyone is running their own relay race. Do not forget you are not the centre of the universe. I know you want to sometimes but everyone has a race to run, everyone has a story.

#5 Sometimes the relay is scary but there are joyous moments as well. Live in those moments. Open your eyes, experience it. Do not let the fear overtake you at all times. Living in fear is not living. Just breathe.