Saturday, July 31, 2010

www.susiesshortbreads.com

The smartest people on the planet came up with this company. Then they created the Susie Mobile - a van that has cupcakes on the move!! It is not just ice cream trucks anymore people! They are located in Halifax and I wish they had been open befoer we left for YK. They opened a shop on Dresden Row (a place I loved to go) and they are also at the Halifax Farmer's Market. The van is genius, pure genius. Good ideas inspire us, take a look at Susie's blog, her Twitter account, her FB page. Be inspired. A warning - eat before you delve into Susie world.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

My baby is growing!

Jacob had his first official physical today. He's 5'5 and 116 lbs and off the charts for 12 yrs old. He is very healthy and while he's growing like a weed - the doc said he may be taller than expected because he has a lot of baby teeth. SO his mouth is 12 yrs old even if his body isn't. Where did my baby go? No more chubby legs, no more tiny hands gently touching my face, definitely no more carrying him around.
But he still wants a kiss good night and he likes to cuddle when we watch movies so at least he still likes me. I still have that side of my once chubby baby.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Fat or Fiction?

OK I have been eating less and gaining weight anyway for months. I am not impressed. Why is this happening? I read "Women, Food and God" and according to that book, I want this weight on my body. I am keeping it to drown my issues out. I don't think so. I think there is a psychological element, the stress that runs through my brain on a daily basis may keep my brain too busy tot alk to the rest of my body. I am always in "flight or fight" mode and that keeps the body from losing weight. My body thinks I have to be ready for war so it keeps the weight on in anticipation of a hunger problem that may arise due to the stress. Of course this is not happening and evolution has ruined my chances of losing weight. Once I relax I think (in theory) some of the weight should come off as long as I exercise and do not overeat. In theory.
I will not give up trying to eat right and walking but it is frustrating. I know I ma not the only person going through this either. I will push through, thank god I am stubborn. To all those skinny women out there who have never had to worry about this - I envy you and hate you at the same time. Motherbitches.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

What the hell?

I know my last blog started about how bad I have been getting about writing and here I am again. Now I have had plenty to write about but most of it cannot be written down in black and white or be read by others. But some great stuff happened too.
Jacob got the math award, the Pursuit of Excellence Award and the Track and Field MVP award at his school and then received an awesome report card of A's and a B in drama (which he's says doesn't really count, I apologize to all of those dramatic). He did his homework after school every day, it has been his habit since Grade 4 and he works hard on his projects and does them all himself. He is a great kid I must say. I wish he would cut his hair, I wish he would clean his room more regularly but that's the small stuff. He tells me "I do love you but you do annoy me" so the teen years have not fully kicked in and I will ride that wave as long as I can. Jason and I are really proud of him, proud of the person he is.

Jason and I are also tolerating each other. Our marriage is one of tolerance, patience, love and dare I say dislike. Sometimes he drives me crazy and other times he is so sweet and tender. The balance is off on some days and wonderful on others. I am still worrying too much so I am trying to work on that. I know I pass that along to him at certain times but I try not and that's when things go south. When you cannot tell the one person what you are feeling because it pertains to them it is not a good thing. But dumping all of my fears and worry onto him isn't fair when it dates back to his heart attack. Sometimes we talk about it when he wants to but I am sure he is sick of hearing me talk about him and that fateful day, as are all of my friends probably. I apologize. When Jason became my number one worry it changed me. I am trying to change back. I am trying to worry about every day mundane things becasue they are easier on the mind and body. That is my goal. Jason doesn't even want me to worry, he never did. So bear with me please.

Other more enjoyable topics - Spending part of Beryl's 50th birthday with her, her girlfiends, Aunt Helen, Claude, Steph and Roger. What a wonderful celebration of one of the most awesome women on this planet. The Nurses and the Brown's are good people to the core. No pretentions, no falseness, no lies. Honest, sweet, loving people who would give you the shirt off your back if you needed it or just wanted it. Everyone needs more people like them in their lives. Beryl, Claude, Sally and Joe are a part of my earliest memories. I am so proud to call them family.

Tracy, Dennis and kids and the three of us spent a day last week at Calypso, the new waterpark. Great place, the wave pool and Jungle Run (lazy river) are great. I do wish the lazy river was longer, wider and had tubes but the boogie boards are ok. I also enjoyed watching people play beach volleyball and sink my feet into the sand. I think my favorite activity was the people watching though - Tracy and I had a great time doing that! I have never seen so many tattoos!! You need to take alot of sunscreen if you are going for the day and keep reapplying it as the water washes it off quickly. Jason got burnt but I did not. Getting a sunburn is no fun - ask him.
But we had a lovely day and a nice picnic until Jacob stepped on Jason's sunglasses by accident ($40 for a new pair of frames, no biggie). Lesson learned: do not lay your sunglass on the picnic blanket (AKA towel on grass).