I think I moved from postpartum depression to empty nest syndrome without a break. Well, that's a lie. It has been almost 18 years. So yeah there was a break. It just went really really fast. Too fast,  I know everyone says this. So why is it so surprising? 

I am not the first nor the last. I assume it is like going through grief, or that glorious rite of passage that got me into this. I will just have to travel through it, not happy about it but it is what it is. I have gotten a lot of good advice from my friends. And of course my parents went through it. But I haven't gotten a lot of advice from only children parents so I am seeking advice from those with no "spare kids", 

Having an extra kid right now to focus on, well, that would have been a good help. They could have helped me through this transition, God, why didn't I think of this sooner? Why didn't I think of this 16 years ago? Hmmmmm. Seems I made a big mistake in not having that second one. Oh well, I made my bed.

I guess I will have to take the mature route and woman up. I will take the high road. I will creep my kid on social media, constantly text him and visit him way too often. Too much? I have a few months to figure this out, Anyone up for rotating road trips and a care package packing night?