Fragility

I titled this blog Your Life Is For Rent because I believe and this week I got another reminder of how true that statement is. Feelings from last summer are erupting again, they come and go but I know I am one of the lucky ones. What determines who stays and who goes? Is it random? Is there nothing we can do about it?
We try and eat right, exercise, treat people right but does that do anything to prevent the inevitable at times? Probably not. Depressing but true yet we still do those things to increase our chances for a longer life. How could we not? I wish I could understand more of this dilemma but that's not in the cards for any of us. I just finished reading two books by Mary Roach - Stiff- the Curious Lives of Human Cadavers and Spook -Science Tackles the Afterlife. Both excellent books but I know most of you will not read them. Not sure why I am into this kind of thing but I always have been, even as a little girl. The first book talks alot about donating (or not) your body to science and what cadavers have done over the years to help the living, to push medicine forward. The second book is a quest to find out if there is an afterlife. The author ends up believing there is but she did not find the proof (her being a scientist) that she needed to confirm such a belief.
If there is we won't know it until we pass. Frustrating but true. If there isn't then we won't care much about it, how could we if we have already passed? Morbid topic for today but all of this has been running through my head (scary or what?) and if I write here maybe I can release some of it into the ether.
Do you believe in an afterlife?