What the hell?

I know my last blog started about how bad I have been getting about writing and here I am again. Now I have had plenty to write about but most of it cannot be written down in black and white or be read by others. But some great stuff happened too.
Jacob got the math award, the Pursuit of Excellence Award and the Track and Field MVP award at his school and then received an awesome report card of A's and a B in drama (which he's says doesn't really count, I apologize to all of those dramatic). He did his homework after school every day, it has been his habit since Grade 4 and he works hard on his projects and does them all himself. He is a great kid I must say. I wish he would cut his hair, I wish he would clean his room more regularly but that's the small stuff. He tells me "I do love you but you do annoy me" so the teen years have not fully kicked in and I will ride that wave as long as I can. Jason and I are really proud of him, proud of the person he is.

Jason and I are also tolerating each other. Our marriage is one of tolerance, patience, love and dare I say dislike. Sometimes he drives me crazy and other times he is so sweet and tender. The balance is off on some days and wonderful on others. I am still worrying too much so I am trying to work on that. I know I pass that along to him at certain times but I try not and that's when things go south. When you cannot tell the one person what you are feeling because it pertains to them it is not a good thing. But dumping all of my fears and worry onto him isn't fair when it dates back to his heart attack. Sometimes we talk about it when he wants to but I am sure he is sick of hearing me talk about him and that fateful day, as are all of my friends probably. I apologize. When Jason became my number one worry it changed me. I am trying to change back. I am trying to worry about every day mundane things becasue they are easier on the mind and body. That is my goal. Jason doesn't even want me to worry, he never did. So bear with me please.

Other more enjoyable topics - Spending part of Beryl's 50th birthday with her, her girlfiends, Aunt Helen, Claude, Steph and Roger. What a wonderful celebration of one of the most awesome women on this planet. The Nurses and the Brown's are good people to the core. No pretentions, no falseness, no lies. Honest, sweet, loving people who would give you the shirt off your back if you needed it or just wanted it. Everyone needs more people like them in their lives. Beryl, Claude, Sally and Joe are a part of my earliest memories. I am so proud to call them family.

Tracy, Dennis and kids and the three of us spent a day last week at Calypso, the new waterpark. Great place, the wave pool and Jungle Run (lazy river) are great. I do wish the lazy river was longer, wider and had tubes but the boogie boards are ok. I also enjoyed watching people play beach volleyball and sink my feet into the sand. I think my favorite activity was the people watching though - Tracy and I had a great time doing that! I have never seen so many tattoos!! You need to take alot of sunscreen if you are going for the day and keep reapplying it as the water washes it off quickly. Jason got burnt but I did not. Getting a sunburn is no fun - ask him.
But we had a lovely day and a nice picnic until Jacob stepped on Jason's sunglasses by accident ($40 for a new pair of frames, no biggie). Lesson learned: do not lay your sunglass on the picnic blanket (AKA towel on grass).